This month is already turning out to be a hard one. Last year at this time I was expecting a new baby and all the joy she was going to bring to all of our lives. Never in a million years could I have imagined that you would have left us only 2 weeks later. Trying to celebrate a year of Leah's life and a year of your death all rolled into one is so bittersweet. I know everyone tells me you are here with us and that you haven't missed out on a single thing. But then maybe I am upset because I missed out on all of your reactions over the last year. Leah is such a joy! She makes us laugh every day and I know she would have made you laugh too! And sometimes I hear that laughter when Leah is making a funny face, or doing something silly. I know you would have gotten such a kick over how Julia and her interact. Julia was the little pepper pot and that made you crack up too...don't worry, I am sure you can see she is still the same Julia. We all miss you so much. I cannot believe it is almost a year since you are gone. I guess they are wrong in saying that time heals all wounds...there is no way time is going to erase how broken hearted I am since you are gone. Please watch over us these next few weeks...they are going to be tough on me and in turn tough on the kids and Jon. And also, be nice to Muggs...he just made his way up to heaven last night and probably needs a friend! I love you so much Daddy and miss you more with each day that passes!